Me 1: Don’t you think I have gone too far in the last couple of years?
Me 2: Far into the same circle you mean?
Me 1: No, far into how I deal with life. I stopped selling myself short at least not in a way that I am aware of. An improvement I guess
Me 2: May be, but don’t you think you are selling your self short to him?
Me 1: At least I didn’t tell him, I didn’t tell anyone back then and I won’t tell anyone ever. I am keeping it inside. I plotted the perfect lie and I sticking to it.
Me 2: You know that woman at the college the other day has figured you out in one minute.
Me 1: She didn’t mean my life; she meant the stupid masters degree.
Me 2: But what she said is absolutely true. The problem was never that you can’t find a good point for your research but the problem is that you never knew the aim of having such a thing. She was right. You don’t know what you want.
Me 1: No, I know exactly what I want.
Me 2: Which is?
Me 1: The fact that I don’t share the things I want with everyone, even with you, doesn’t mean that I really don’t want anything. Even if we hypothetically admitted that I want nothing, this will be something that I want and the hypothesis will be initially false.
Me 2: Welcome Miss Philosophical nonsense. This is what I have been talking about. You never knew what you really wanted. You never knew what you really wanted from yourself and you never knew what you really wanted from them.
Me 1: C’mon, at least I knew what I wanted from HIM.
Me 2: Ah, HIM? And?
Me 1: Remember, I told him and look what happened. A MESS
Me 2: But that MESS didn’t stop you from repeating the same mistake.
Me 1: And this is exactly what I have been talking about. I didn’t tell him and this is what I call a positive change. I hid it even from myself and this is what I call an improvement.
Me 2: Frankly, do you think it would ever be going to work. Assuming that you have communicated what you really had in mind and it was sound for him?
Me 1: I’ve never thought of it that way. The only thing I thought of back then was how to minimize the pain. Because I knew it will eventually come.
Me 2: You are way too ruined. You are beyond fixing girl. Yet, I really like what you said about sometimes the only way to say I love you is to say goodbye.
Me 1: Yeah, it was intended to HIM. Everyone read it, liked it but you know HIM. He never cares.
Me 2: He is too way beyond fixing. By the way your detachment technique sucks. And your quicksand analogy is true. I think it is better if you stopped fighting. Just keep holding your position and for God’s sake stop listening to Robbie Williams’ something stupid because you will eventually be as stupid as the song.
Me 1: But …
Me 2: No Buts, time to bug Sameh. Nighty Nighty