September 27, 2014
September 09, 2014
I know I have been writing too much about myself lately. But I think I am blogging my feelings away.
So there was that moment, when at what was supposed to be a professional meeting gone bad, when the guy looked at me after almost 45 mins of trying to talk me out of an idea and said, you are smart and passionate. he said other things too, but I honestly shut off his "praise">
You know why?
Because I realized that I don't need his validation, the same way I didn't really need anyone's validation.
I know I seem to be begging for validation.
But honestly, I shut off the "praise".
I validate myself!
September 08, 2014
September 01, 2014
All what I want is a hug. It's becoming seriously annoying. I tease friends so they send me virtual hugs.
I don't want virtual hugs anymore.
And I don't want just another casual hug.
I need a deep hug. A hug that means something.
A hug that feels home.
I don't feel home anymore, I am constantly lost.
August 28, 2014
August 27, 2014
August 24, 2014
I wrote him a long email explaining why I had to decline his offer.
But I didn't send it.
I would have sent it if he asked.
I have done everything I could. I have walked the extra mile.
I think it is over ... but i am not sure if it is ok.
August 23, 2014
August 22, 2014
It was 2008 or maybe 2009 when I told Brad that my wish for the new year/ birthday is to have a healthy relationship.
It is 2014 and I still didn't get the healthy relationship I wanted.
I got lots of men but no relationships.
I got lots of desire but no feelings.
I am still trapped in the old corner of needs, wants and disappointments.
But it is ok ... it is ok.
I give up
August 20, 2014
I had an overwhelming year!
This overwhelmingly overwhelming year was courtesy of him.