January 17, 2010

The Story of X & Y

After many years from now ....

X: You should have told me back then.

Y: it wouldn’t have made any difference

X: it wasn’t your call to make.

Y: and now you know. What difference this will make?!

X: silence

Y: I would have told you if I was sure. You knew and you didn’t do a thing. You are not stupid, you knew. I would have told if I was sure that the only thing that was keeping you from taking the step was fear or doubt. I would have told you if you were really that stupid. But you knew and I wasn’t sure.

X: You weren’t sure of how I would have reacted?

Y: no, I wasn’t sure if I can take this reaction. I was sure of your reaction, I wasn’t sure I could have taken it. I preferred to live on the doubt that maybe you had feelings for me and you were that stupid not to notice that I have them back. I preferred to live with a lie than facing the ugly truth.

X: I don’t think I am that cruel.

Y: So?!

X: (silently moving away)

Y: (silently praying for faith)


deppy said...

At least he was man enough to face it when he made sure :)

(am I getting the thing right?)

Shimaa Gamal said...

Well, before saying whether you got it right or wrong. Which of them is the male and which is the female?

deppy said...

X is the female
Y is the male


Shimaa Gamal said...

It actually works both ways, but in my mind X was the male and Y was the female.
And no I don't think any man is man enough to not walk away when confronted with feelings even if he knows about them. Actually, there is a higher change he will walk away if he was confronted with feeling that he knew about. He would have taken the step, but he hesitated. Hesitation is a vote against a certain decision.

X in this conversation walked away twice. Once when he knew about the feeling and didn't want to confront it. And 2nd when he was confronted.

He wouldn't have stayed in the 1st place :) I think Y is wise for not telling him now.

Am I way too complicated?

deppy said...

mmm, you have a point, And my point was that no man is man enough to say about their feelings, so yes it makes sense that way.
Honestly I'm pleased by Y's stand, I'm happy she broke him (shrera ana :D).

Shimaa Gamal said...

Do you think she really broke him? :)

deppy said...

Good point :D *Grrr*

Ze2red Hanem El-Darmaly said...

Touching!!! heartbreaking... & ouch on your comments, both of you :)

Shimaa Gamal said...

Hello ze2red

It is really heart breaking :) in so many ways that probably I couldn't put in the conversation :)

I hope you are having a nice day, it might rain btw so take care :)

Ze2red Hanem El-Darmaly said...

When you can write them down, it will be interesting to know what's going on ur mind.

about the rain, el sa7ab kan beydla3 today, i hate it when it's like that el car kanet metbahdela 3ashan it's not pouring rain. I love heavy rain though it's not safe for driving.

Shimaa Gamal said...

I love rain too but I hate how dangerous it can be.
My brother works in Sharm El Shiekh and he is now unreachable. The floods cut the communication. And I don't know anything about him and I am dead worried.

Ze2red Hanem El-Darmaly said...

i am sure he is OK, masl7a akeed wakhed agaza :D

Shimaa Gamal said...

rabena yostor :) we teegy bas 3ala ad el agaza el egbary :)