Drafts, Page 1

I did the right thing. I chose what seemed the right thing at the right moment of time. But the outcome of all these rights is just wrong.

I did the right thing ... But the right thing was wrong.

Collective Tweets – For the Islamo-Phobic Muslims

• Ok there is another stupid poll circulating on FB asking whether u r a Muslim, a Salafi, an Azhari or an MB. Here is the diff for dummies
• So my dear fellow Egyptian who thinks the Salafis are a religion by their own, Surprise, Surprise. Salafis are Muslims too
• عزيزى المواطن ، الإخوان و السلفية و الأزهرية ليست أديان لتقارن بالإسلام
• عزيزى المواطن الإخوان المسلمون هى فى الأساس جمعية دعوية و إمتد نشاطها الدعوى للنشاط الإجتماعى و السياسى - يعنى مش دين جديد
• عزيزى المواطن مافيش حاجة إسمها المذهب السلفى ، لإن كل المذاهب من السلف - الإسلام مش دين مبتدع و البدع فيه مكروهه كراهية التحريم
• عزيزى المواطن كل المسلمين سلفيين و لكن ليس كل المسلمين متشددين فى إتباعهم للسلف من حيث العادات
• عزيزى المواطن حتى التشدد فى إتباع السلف فى العادات اليومية بيخل المسلم شكله قديم و لكن برضوه مش بيعض
• عزيزى المواطن فى الأزهر الجامعة تدرس المذاهب الإسلامية المختلفة
• عزيزى المواطن وسطية الأزهر مش بدعة و لكن لإن مصر من قدم الدهر لم تتبع المذهب الحنبلى على عكس المملكة السعودية التى بنيت أركانها عليه
• عزيزى المواطن المملكة السعودية دولة حديثة العهد ، عكس مصر و كانت من قبل دويلات و قبائل وحدها أل سعود مع الفقيه محمد بن عبد الوهاب
• عزيزى المواطن الوهابيين بنوا مذهبهم على مذهب إبن تيمية اللى هو فى الأساس مبنى على مذهب الإمام أحمد بن حنبل
• عزيزى المواطن المذاهب إختلفت لعدة أسباب منها إختلاف البيئة ، يعنى عادى إن اللى يمشى فى مصر مكروه فى مكان تانى لإختلاف الظروف
• عزيزى المواطن الله يرضى عليك لو مش عارف الفروق السابقة و هى بديهيات و مش معلومات جديدة ، الله يرضى عليك إسكت لحد ما تتعلم مش عيب إنك تتعلم
• عزيزى المواطن المسلم الله يرضى عليك دينك مش تهمة و مش سبة و حتى و إن كان فيه قلة متشددة و قلة ضالة و قلة متطرفة ، إمسك على دينك
• عزيزى المواطن إنت لا ترضى بدينك البشر بل الله سبحانه - فلا تستحى من الحق و لا تخشى فى الله لومة لائم و لا تبيع الله ثمن بخس

Back to the matters of the heart

I even stopped writing in my head ...

I am that angry ... I am that upset ...

This one goes to ... You

Because nothing will ever fill your place in my heart

Collective Tweets – Egypt/ Palestine

Dear people complaining that Egypt never did anything for the Palestinian cause, I am not going to remind you of the Egyptian blood shed for it but with something else

There was once a terrorist wanted by lots of countries in the world, his name was Arafat. Egypt turned him into a president eligible to sit to negotiation tables.

Egypt brokered the deal that gave Arafat Gaza, that Hamas now rules. Without Egypt there wasn't going to be a Gaza to fight for in 1st place.

Thank you, you are always welcomed. We, in Egypt, have done what we felt is our duty to help our brothers & sisters. We are so sorry that other Arabs are only helping by words. We are so sorry that these words are just to attack the best we had to give to this cause.

Collective Tweets – Referendum’s Religion War

Hello World!

It’s been a while. I really miss blogging but this time I am not going to blame facebook for distraction I am going to blame twitter.

It is easy and I don’t comply with the formality of writing.

I am lazy which isn’t news and because my followers asked my repeatedly to gather tweets about the same subject in one place so they can follow the idea without getting lost in the time line. Here I am starting a sequence of posts with collective tweets.

• - I find the video of the father in the church asking his followers to vote no to save Egypt from an Islamic state alarming for many reasons
• - The referendum poll wasn't about religion, because surprise surprise, a yes & a no lead to re-writing the constitution.
• - And here is a fact check; Islam isn't about MB or the Salafis. And surprise, surprise Egypt has majority of Muslims
• - So regardless the thoughts the Islamic identity of the majority of the Egyptians will be reflected on the constitution.
• - But reflecting the identity of the majority doesn't ever mean not preserving the "minority" identity too.
• - So make anything a religion war and you lose. In Egypt, people who never pray will happily kill in the name of their religion.
• - Dear Egyptians turning everything into a religion war, I can hear Lord Wingate laughing in his grave saying "I told you they will fight"

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It is all personal after all

In case you have been stranded on a deserted island on the last two weeks I would like to inform you that we are having a revolution in Egypt. A revolution that even those who called for it never believed it will work. It worked, the revolution managed to outcast the Egyptian president. And Egypt, the country I have always known will never be the same.

Let’s first agree on one thing. I was never high on revolutions the same way wars never thrill me. The idea of people dying is terrifying for me and I believe should be avoided at any cost. I don’t mind if I died, I mind if someone else had to die for me to live. I can’t live with the guilt. It is that simple, I am a person who takes risks but never put others at risk.

If you recall my La Revolution en Rouge I voiced my worries of where my beloved country is heading. I was worried of the level of tension I was feeling everywhere and how it could explode for the silliest reasons, even just a football match.

The revolution happened. And I am still not high on revolutions. I know that right now I will instantly be labeled as a traitor by many. My friends are already looking at me suspiciously because, honestly, it is even too hard for me to grasp right now how I can be pro reform yet not high and excited about the revolution.

It really puzzles me. And for the 1^st time I am here facing my own complexities 1^st hand. For the 1^st time I get to handle my pragmatism against my romanticism. The concept of revolution is in core a romantic concept. Knocking down the walls of the possible to get to the promising unknown is such an overwhelming inspirational idea.

Challenging all what’s known for the good of the unknown. To fight for the right you believe in till you either die or win. This is what revolutions are all about and this is what my life was really all about or at least so I believed. I don’t give in to things that I don’t believe in. I do what I believe is right regardless how wrong others think it is. I have a long record of risk. I didn’t change, I agreed on the goal. I never denied how bad things are, I was even mocked by many for still believing in the country. I wrote this in the time no one really saw me standing on a solid ground.

Then it was Tunisia and I started getting really worried because for the 1^st time I knew that exploding is near. I smelled it and I wasn’t excited, on the contrary and for my personal surprise for the 1^st time in my whole life I wish I had a microphone to go in the streets of Egypt and beg people not to go in these demos. I wanted to go in the streets of Egypt and tell the Egyptian government to step down and start seeing how the levels of tension really are.

One more time I was helpless. It is ok to be helpless on the personal level. But I felt personally responsible for everything that will happen to this country.

I felt responsible and I still feel responsible and I am frozen by the responsibility.

I know it is crazy to feel responsible for a whole country in the time I am just an insignificant individual with a very faint voice. But this is how I feel; this is how I have been feeling since I said my very 1^st prayer for Tunisians. I feel responsible for everyone and everything in Egypt and I feel helpless because I can’t do anything about it.

A day before the jan25 protests started I commented on something a friend shared on facebook that I am a control freak. I can’t be excited about these protests for they are not under my control and no one can tell the results. And as the days went on I was proven right about lots of things. And I keep saying that we are just getting started. Right now, we have a military junta ruling the country, no constitution, the people say they gained their dignity back but they have done this on the expense of the state. Right now, the biggest threat on the Egyptian national security is the Egyptian streets and the army is everywhere.

Sure people will laugh if I said that this is chaotic and will say that it is ok and things are going smooth but then I will have to differ and say that right now there is no state in Egypt which makes all scenarios possible. No one could tell if things are going to stabilize or just set on fire again. No one could ever tell, because right now a 7000 yrs old country is on her knees. And I feel personally responsible for this.

And I can't solve this. I can't undo those people who died. I can't undo the lots of things that happened and added up to lead to the overwhelming surprise of people taking over Tahrir (liberation) square. I can't guarantee that all the bad scenarios running in my head won't end up true. And this is torturing me.

My 7000 years old love is on her knees and somehow this is all my fault.

But ... He is just not that into you!

I am reading "He is just not that into you". And the book is hilarious but painful because the joke though so funny but it is on me. I have been sharing quotes and I will be sharing more quotes. But there is a certain quote that I’d rather share again here along the comment I got from one of my friends. Then I have a little comment on that comment. This could be added to what I have written here before.

The quote was:

I don’t want to ruin the friendship” excuse is a racket. It works so well because it seems so wise. Sex could mess up a friendship. Unfortunately, in the entire history of mankind, that excuse has never ever been used by someone who actually means it. If we’re really excited about someone, we can’t stop ourselves—we want more. If we’re friends with someone and attracted to them, we’re going to want to take it further. And please, don’t tell me he’s just “scared.” The only thing he’s scared of—and I say this with a lot of love—is how not attracted to you he is!

– He is just not that into you

My friend commented:

Stop reading this boookkkk :) :)

Well women should really see the positive side.

1) The guy lied to her to not make her feel bad so he cares

2) God saved her from getting into a forced relation

3) She got to keep the guy around and hunt for another one.

And because I am still under the influence of the book and the idea that led me to write the inevitable post I can’t see anything positive in that.

1- Because when the guy uses the “I don’t want to ruin the friendship” card he cares but not really about the girl. He cares more about his loss of her company. Guys get lonely too, and girl friends are good cushion till they find the girl of their dreams. Girl friends are as good as girlfriends but with no sex unless off course the guy managed to talk her into friends with benefits. And this is a completely different story. The point is, he cares but not only for the girl. He cares for himself more.

2- There is nothing like a forced relationship. Off course the friend who would care too much about the feelings of his poor girl friend might give in to her pressure. Which is rare, no man would give in to pressure to be in a relationship but let’s play along. Let’s assume he will be drunk, sedated or desperate and will give her a chance. He is still won’t be into her and he will still get out of that relationship. It won’t happen until he wants it.

3- Getting to keep the guy around isn’t really a positive thing. It is emotionally draining. It could work for a man, because that’s what men do. But it won’t work for a girl because she won’t be able to hunt for a new guy as long as she wants that guy. Her hunt is over. Unlike men who keep hunting for preys by instinct whether or not they are in a relationship.

The thing that most men forget is that women take time to decide. Unlike men who decide from the 1^st 10 minutes in a date whether or not they want a relationship with that person. It takes women a while to decide. Unless the guy is so off, a woman needs a couple of dates to decide and even after that she will keep asking around her girl friends whether or not the guy ticked enough items on the good guy list. It will take a woman a significant amount of time to know that it is ok to be with a certain guy. It takes a woman, with history, a significant amount of time to take down the guards and trust.

That’s why the whole falling for friends thing. Because the woman has enough time to test, re-test and see things with the guy. They probably have lots in common that’s why they became friends in the 1^st place. Unlike the guys women usually fall for who are completely appalling. And friends are safe to be around, that sense of safety contributes to the falling to the friend syndrome.

But then comes the challenge, should a woman stick to the friend after he plays the relationship would ruin our friendship card or should she simply cut him off.

This is the real question that most women face at a certain moment of their life. Should she play along and see the positive side my friend listed in his comment or should she walk away. Because the truth is, she lost the friend anyway.

Didn’t I tell you before, it is Inevitable!

Abracadabra

So each of us is like a magician, with a bag of tricks. You meet a person and you start pulling one trick after the other, sometimes you win and sometimes you lose. But once in a while you meet one person and all your tricks fail.

And you are left with the question will your tricks ever work on anyone again.

Once in a while you meet the one person who shakes your belief in your own magic. And you find yourself holding back from doing the one thing you know how to do because you are not sure it will ever work again.

Just a thought

I have been failed a lot by many people in my life.

Some intentionally failed me, and some didn't really mean it.


I wonder who I might be failing now ...