July 28, 2016

Loss -3

I keep replaying the last week before my dady's death. I am trying to figure out whether or not he knew he was going to die.

I keep finding clues and hints. Things that could be interpreted as signs of being ready to leave. Yet I keep finding other hints and clues that he had no idea.

Replaying the incidents of our last week I discovered that my dad had always been ready to leave. He always knew he is going to die and always acted accordingly.

I will never be able to tell for sure whether or not he knew he is approaching his end line.

He knew that death was inevitable. He knew it could happen any time for any reason. He always knew that and he always acted accordingly.


Anonymous said...

I'm sorry for your loss, please accept my deepest condolences.

Shimaa Gamal said...


Anonymous said...

Shimaa I am very sorry for your loss. My father passed almost 16 years ago now. I like you used to often replay the days leading to his death. I wrote poems about them. Imagined if he had done something differently, that by a mere twist of fate he would still be here today. However, it was his time, Allah called him back.

My love and prayers are with you. All your supplications will keep you close to him. I still feel my father's presence with me today, your father is with you, always will be. He's only on the other side now, with the Beloved, which is more beautiful than we can imagine it.

May Allah grant you patience during this difficult time.

Hugs from Toronto.

Shimaa Gamal said...

Amen. Thanks a lot

Hany AbuShall said...

I am very sorry for your loss ya Shimaa.

Shimaa Gamal said...

Thank you Hany

Anonymous said...

Forgot to identify myself at the first comment, hope you're managing ربنا يصبرك

Shimaa Gamal said...

I am surviving. I am still shocked. Keep praying for me and my family.