Did I ever take my father for granted?
I don't know. I will never know because he isn't there to answer the question. Actually this is a question that I was never ever going to ask him.
I used to ask him other types of questions. My Dady "was" a knowledgeable person, so even in the age of google I would simply ask him about stuff. Random stuff, I would ask dady 1st then ask google.
I asked him about almost everything in this life.
One of the many things that scares me now is that I will always have to find the answers myself. I will always have to be sure I got the answers right because Dady isn't here anymore to validate me.
Which leads to another "important" conclusion. I think I never needed validation from people because I had Dady's validation. People always saw me as strong and confident, now I strongly believe they saw me this way because I always acted in the light that there is a strong safety net that will catch me if I ever really fall.
Did I ever took my father for granted?
Off course I did! And he was totally happy I did.
I think the father/ child relationship is the only relationship that function on the taking the other party for granted. It is the safety of having someone stuck with you no matter what you do to them.
A safety that no one will ever be able to match.