February 09, 2009

I wish I were a fish!





I had many moments when I wondered why I was created human. I had many moments starring at cats wondering how my life would be if I was one. Being a cat would have been a great thing. I would have been fury, cuddly, cute and playful. I would have enjoyed that utter peace of mind. A cat literally has nothing to worry about compared to humans. Given I was born a cat and was destined to the worst a cat can be and live in the streets of Cairo that would have been far better than being human. A cat in the streets of Cairo will fear boys, cars and dogs which are the things I fear too. My brother pointed out that it will be an awful life because I will have to eat off trash cans, but hello! Trash cans sounds like a feast for a cat. I could have lived with this. And who knows maybe I was to be a fortunate cat who is a spoiled pet in a comfy house. Could anyone tell me, what “fluffy” has to worry about?

Humans are arrogant species. We, humans, believe that the whole world is ours. Those who believe in God think God created this whole world for us. Those who don’t, believe that a serious of very clever fortunate events has put humans on top of the chain of life.
And out of this belief and this arrogance most of us question their existence. We think of things like who am I to the world or what did I contribute to the world and we think of big things like change and how we can push it down the throats of everyone to save humanity.

But do you think a Giraffe has such thoughts? Do you think an elephant wakes up in the morning saying it is a good day to save lives? Do you think a gorilla wonder about the value of her job or even a parrot thinks why he is alive?

I really envy them for knowing that they are too small to wonder. I envy them for living in that clear world. In the world of birds, animals and plants none of them do something out of ability. They don’t kill because they can; those who kill do it to live. Those who got killed know when to give in to destiny and those who are left behind know how to go on.
In our side of the world we do things because we can, not because we need. Even our needs are mostly irrelevant to our capabilities and it is actually called ambition and it is praised.

I just can’t help but wonder how in our side of the world we fight to prevail not to co-exist.
I can’t help but dreaming how life would be if I was just a tiny colorful fish calling a beautiful coral reef home and wise enough to know that the beauty surrounding her wasn’t created for her own pleasure. It would have been wonderful to not to think too much. It would have been a blessing to be tiny and never mind.

I really wish I was that fish

10 comments:

LiL^OrioN said...

awwww... shima dear.. dun say that. if you hadn't been a human, i wouldn't have met such a wonderful person like you. =)

Om HAGAR said...

Dear,

You know what?! I completly agree with you that the human beings are so arrogant and from the very first begining.

And there is no Prove to it more than that they accepted to take the responsibilty that ALLAH passed to them in the same time that al the other beings refused to take it.

But in the same time I love being a human. I love thinking I'm useful to others.

But there is no one who can conflict with you that being not responsible about anything even if for a little while is a very great blessing.

It is a confusing issue isn't it??!!!

If it is possible to be another creature sometime, I wish I would be a Bird full of facinating colors & have the freedom to fly from place to place to see all the nature beuaty which ALLAH belssed us with without the need to have a passport & to pass bords.

I wish!!

Shimaa Gamal said...

Haz, you make me speechless :)
I love you
*Hugs*

Shimaa Gamal said...

Hello Om Hagar
Well, I might be more useful to the world as a fish than a human :)
As a fish or a bird or a tree, your job to help others isn't up to you. You are helping and playing a role by your mere existence.
In the time humans think too much about why they were created and try to figure out the right paths. Even in process we dare to judge who is doing good and who isn't.

I always tell my father that I don't remember that I accepted the responsibilty when God offered it to all the creatures but he always assures me that I was that stupid.

You know only humans can doubt God's word. Only humans wonder if destiny is real. Only humans curse when bad things happen.

It will be cool to be a bird too :) you will know how to heavenly sing, and enjoy arial views :)
But please if you ever become a bird never eat fish :) I don't want to be eaten by a bird :)
(And that's the human talking, the real fish would have known that it was created to be bird food)

marooned84 said...

I have to admit, you have a point! plus, if u were anything else other than humans you won't have to think at all! You'll just live, follow your instincts, and in the end die. You won't be responsible for your actions. You won't have to learn anything.

Well, I do prefer to be human after all. If one can't feel sad, he can't feel happy either. One'll just feel hungry, cold, hurt, but never happy.

Shimaa Gamal said...

Well, Marooned you have a point.
At least if I really was fish I wouldn't have found joy in imagining my life as one.
You know, it is one skill that puts humans on top of things. We can see things through someone else's eyes.

Yet, it would have been amazing if I had that utter peace of mind :)

Noly said...

Yaaaaaaaah ya Shi finally I understood why you wished to be a fish :)
First: I agree with Haz, it will be a lose for any one close to you law enty msh fy hayatna :) so thanks Allah for having you here as a human ;)

Second: regardless all the bad things we face in this life but I think aw this is my reason for bearing such stupid life which is hoping to enter paradise fel akhra ISA( ya rab ya rab o2ly ya rab :) nedkhol el gana kolna. I think this reward worth waiting and standing this life.fa el hamd lelah en we are humans.

Third: I may think it with another way that I hope en ehna kan yenfa3 net7awel masln for a certain period w ngrb nb2a haga tanya bas nerga3 tany humans. If I can, I will wish to be a cute butterfly :) fly here and there without any rules or chains to control my life w asln living between the sweet colourful flowers. ya slam mafesh a7la mn keda :)

gjoe said...

Enty fakkareteeny bel lemby lamma aal "kaan nefsy ab2a far7'a, aho 3ala el a2all kont habeed."

Enty 3andek otta fel beet? Asl i do have a cat and sometimes I gaze at her and have the same thoughts.

When I am sad I look at my cat and say"awww, she is so sweet, she never never cried. Lucky her." Then I remember that she can't laugh either. She can't speak. She can't decide. She can't make her life better. She doesn't have "choices".
Surprisingly, many humans "choose" to live like choice-less animals.

Bass actually when I thought and looked into it deeper, I realized how blessed I am as a human being. I have been searching ALOT on how "valuable" a human life is. Just how important we really are as a species. And what I found through reading both Islamic and Scientific books that, it is breath-takingly valuable it would make you dizzy.


Let me quote a Bill Bryson (who wrote an AMAZING book about many scientific discoveries throughout history) when he said "We have been chosen, by fate or by providence or whatever you wish to call it. As far as we can tell, we are the best there is. We maybe all there is. It is an unnerving thought that we may be the living universe's supreme achievement and its worse nightmare simultaneously."

In islam we know better than that. We know that we are chosen not by the universe wala 7aga but by Allah sob7anoh w ta3alah. I am not being Vain when i say that human beings are the most amazing creatures there is.

(وَلَقَدْ كَرَّمْنَا بَنِي آدَمَ وَحَمَلْنَاهُمْ فِي الْبَرِّ وَالْبَحْرِ وَرَزَقْنَاهُمْ مِنْ الطَّيِّبَاتِ وَفَضَّلْنَاهُمْ عَلَى كَثِيرٍ مِمَّنْ خَلَقْنَا تَفْضِيلاً )

وسخر لكم ما في السموات وما في الأرض جميعا منه إن في ذلك لآيات لقوم يتفكرون

اني جاعل في الارض خليفة »

انا عرضنا الامانة على السماوات والارض والجبال فأبين ان يحملنها واشفقن منها وحملها الانسان انه كان ظلوما جهولا


The Ayah you see implies that although our role is "scaring-ly huge".. we just dont really grasp it.. hence the ignorance and the unfairness we do to ourselves.

I didnt mean to take this rather humorous post so seriously, which i did (I should have just LOLed). Bass I was just making a point because I have been wanting to be a fish, a tree, an single-celled organism for so many years and I was frustrated at my whole pathetic existence only to find out that My sole existence is rather marvelous and only my thoughts were pathetic.

Lessa bardo nefsek teb2y samaka ? :D

Shimaa Gamal said...

Gjoe :)
It is unfair to corner me in “the use your amazing human brain to seriously think about being a fish” corner. :)
I don’t have a cat at home. But honestly I have watched too much” nat geo wild” before writing this post :) it is really wonderful watching this amazing world. You just can’t say anything but “Subhan Allah”.
I don’t think any human can really live a choice-less life. At least if anyone tried to do, this will be a choice :)
Yet, I can’t argue with the value of humans. Not only because I am one, but because I believe in God. And I believe that God created humans for a reason.
So, do I still wish to be a fish? Right now, after you cornered me in the “be reasonable” corner :) I don’t wish to be a fish. But, I will still keep the right to wish to be one when I feel down :)))) Nemo is cute :))

And let’s all wish none of us will wish he was a fish in doomsday. Because only those who will rest in hell will wish they were never human.

Shimaa Gamal said...

Nolyyy
Exactly, paradise is what’s waiting for human while all other creatures will just be dust. That’s why humans are supposed to work for their life (life isn’t really the life we are living now, it is the life we will live after we die).
It is kind of scary :) mesh keda.
Life as a butterfly is really going to be interesting but I never heard of friendship between a fish and a butterfly :(
It is good that we humans :) else I wouldn’t have a friend like you