February 09, 2009
I wish I were a fish!
I had many moments when I wondered why I was created human. I had many moments starring at cats wondering how my life would be if I was one. Being a cat would have been a great thing. I would have been fury, cuddly, cute and playful. I would have enjoyed that utter peace of mind. A cat literally has nothing to worry about compared to humans. Given I was born a cat and was destined to the worst a cat can be and live in the streets of Cairo that would have been far better than being human. A cat in the streets of Cairo will fear boys, cars and dogs which are the things I fear too. My brother pointed out that it will be an awful life because I will have to eat off trash cans, but hello! Trash cans sounds like a feast for a cat. I could have lived with this. And who knows maybe I was to be a fortunate cat who is a spoiled pet in a comfy house. Could anyone tell me, what “fluffy” has to worry about?
Humans are arrogant species. We, humans, believe that the whole world is ours. Those who believe in God think God created this whole world for us. Those who don’t, believe that a serious of very clever fortunate events has put humans on top of the chain of life.
And out of this belief and this arrogance most of us question their existence. We think of things like who am I to the world or what did I contribute to the world and we think of big things like change and how we can push it down the throats of everyone to save humanity.
But do you think a Giraffe has such thoughts? Do you think an elephant wakes up in the morning saying it is a good day to save lives? Do you think a gorilla wonder about the value of her job or even a parrot thinks why he is alive?
I really envy them for knowing that they are too small to wonder. I envy them for living in that clear world. In the world of birds, animals and plants none of them do something out of ability. They don’t kill because they can; those who kill do it to live. Those who got killed know when to give in to destiny and those who are left behind know how to go on.
In our side of the world we do things because we can, not because we need. Even our needs are mostly irrelevant to our capabilities and it is actually called ambition and it is praised.
I just can’t help but wonder how in our side of the world we fight to prevail not to co-exist.
I can’t help but dreaming how life would be if I was just a tiny colorful fish calling a beautiful coral reef home and wise enough to know that the beauty surrounding her wasn’t created for her own pleasure. It would have been wonderful to not to think too much. It would have been a blessing to be tiny and never mind.
I really wish I was that fish