April 02, 2009

It is not a Depression

I don’t want to work
I don’t want to get married
I don’t want to go out with my friends
I don’t want to go shopping
I don’t want to get out of bed
I don’t want to talk

I don’t want to die

But I can’t remember when I decided I don’t want to live.

Every Morning I wake up on a hope that this day will be the day time freezes. And every night I pray it won’t be my last.

If only I remember when did I decide not to live!


Ola said...

Well, this happens to everyone my dear, but please don't allow this feeling to get on you. So far you recognize what you do really feel & as long as you think it is a depression, so it is not!! A diseased person never realized that he is diseased so please get rid of it & be back to yourself:))

Shimaa Gamal said...

Hey Ola
I know it is not a depression because apart from writing these lines to relieve a feeling, I am happy, fully functional and I go through my days thankful for what I have.
Actually I more thankful that I don't have what other people got.
I am really thankful

But I just can't resist the feeling that I want time to stop, and people to mute. Actually not all people :))) If only I have the remote :))

Thanks dear