April 02, 2009

It is not a Depression

I don’t want to work
I don’t want to get married
I don’t want to go out with my friends
I don’t want to go shopping
I don’t want to get out of bed
I don’t want to talk

I don’t want to die


But I can’t remember when I decided I don’t want to live.

Every Morning I wake up on a hope that this day will be the day time freezes. And every night I pray it won’t be my last.

If only I remember when did I decide not to live!

2 comments:

Ola said...

Well, this happens to everyone my dear, but please don't allow this feeling to get on you. So far you recognize what you do really feel & as long as you think it is a depression, so it is not!! A diseased person never realized that he is diseased so please get rid of it & be back to yourself:))

Shimaa Gamal said...

Hey Ola
I know it is not a depression because apart from writing these lines to relieve a feeling, I am happy, fully functional and I go through my days thankful for what I have.
Actually I more thankful that I don't have what other people got.
I am really thankful

But I just can't resist the feeling that I want time to stop, and people to mute. Actually not all people :))) If only I have the remote :))

Thanks dear