On that kiss of life ...

Him: I want one kiss

Her: *Silence*

Him: Seriously, all what I want is one kiss. I love you. I won’t ask for more. Just kiss me. One last time.

Her: No. I can’t. I won’t.

Him: Why?

Her: Because I want more. I want more than a kiss. I want kisses. I want hugs. I want sex … I want love!

Him: *Silence*

Her: I want more … I need more! I want to live. And you can’t offer me life.

Episodes of loneliness - On fading out

I can't remember how you smelled.

I can't remember what type of cigarettes you smoke.

I can't remember how your eyes looked gazing into mine.

I can't remember what you wore.

I can't remember how warm/ cold your hands were.

I can't remember how my hand felt in yours.

Your voice keeps fading in my mind I fear one day I won't be able to recognize it.

You are turning into a ghost of a memory.

I am scared ... Don't let me go.

Flashes from another life -1

S: (in tears) I don't want to die ...

H: (hugging her tightly) hushhh ...

A Serious Question

Why would a man get interested in "sleeping" with a "certain" woman?

Why?

Huston ... We have a Problem!

There are certain questions that signals that something is going wrong in your relationship.


Examples:

* But we are friends, aren't we?

If you got to the point of playing the "friendship" card this means you are not friends and one of you is trying to either set boundaries or claim rights.

* you love me, don't you?
If you feel like asking someone whether or not they love you, this might mean they don't.

* but you couldn't be possibly betraying me, no?

Chances are you have been betrayed and in denial.


What other questions do you think signals relationship troubles?

Dear You - Do it for me

The thing is I don't want a fling. I want to ask you to stay forever. But I am not sure we can do forever. I don't want you to runaway either.

I want you. I like you. I like us. I want us. I don't want it to be a fling and I can't ask you for forever.

Do it for me. Will you?

My Disney Princess

So last night, I asked my friends on twitter a question. Who is your favorite Disney princess and why?

I got some interesting answers. And instead of spamming the timelines of my friends with my answer I thought of sharing it here.

Belle is my favorite Disney princess. 

Let’s look at Belle, the young yet mature beyond her years. She is a book worm. She didn’t conform to her society’s expectations and she wished for an adventurous life. She is intelligent and brave. And when the time came she stepped up to save her father from the beast everyone feared.

Belle was a girl of character. She did what she believed should be done. And she loved that that no one else could possibly love. She had an eye that saw the good in the beast.

The love of her man didn’t make a princess out of her. It was through “their” mutual love to one another that both became prince and princess.

So, who is your favorite Disney princess and why?

Reality Check

Him: I don't like the new guy. He plays wrong tunes.

Her: He says he loves me. He says that the feelings he has for me is sure a form of love. But you know people say things they don't mean all the time. Again, why would he love me?

Him: That's why I tell you he plays the wrong tunes.

Her: Isn't that sort of sad? That I am not loveable? That when a guy says he loves me, then he must be lying. You know it is sort of heart breaking.

Him: It isn't that way ...

Her: It is ok. I am fine.

Sigh

I have you on best-est friends list.

I spend all my day thinking about you.

I occasionally get a ghost of you talking to me. 

I crazily miss you.

I feel I am completely worthless because I can't find one good reason for you to have interest in me.

I just miss you a lot and too frequent ... it is annoying. 

Why did you come into my life?

Why will you leave? 

Eventually you will ...

There isn't anything to stay for ...

There isn't anything that could be of interest ...

Why me? And why not me? 

I am not smart, I am not pretty, I am not successful ... I am a no one. 

And I miss you. 

The point is how would you ever realize that "no one" is missing you. 

Why did you come into my life? ..... Why did you leave?

One Last Time ... Again

She Said:

You know I have always wanted a serious relationship. I didn't want to know that much men. I wanted to marry my 1st guy. But he left me. Then came another one who left me too. Every time I thought it will be the last time. And every time they left because I wanted it to be serious and they were never "serious" enough.

I didn't want to know as much men. I didn't want to have a first or a last. I just wanted to have one man. But no man wanted me to be "the" one woman.

Maybe I should change perspective.

Maybe I should take the fling as long as I am always offered "flingship"

Or maybe I should redefine seriousness because my seriousness led me to no where.


But I don't want a fling. I get nothing but "flings". I don't want a fling. I want something stable. I want no worries. I want to take something for granted. I don't want to worry about how stupid I am. Or how anything I am doing might turn him off. I don't want to worry whether or not he thinks I am entertaining. I don't want to fear being complicated. I don't need to pretend being shallow or deep.

I want to be myself, I want to be safe and I want it to last long enough for it to be a fact of life not something I am not sure whether or not is real.

I don't want a fling.

But maybe I should give him a try. One last time.

The day I quit him is the day I will quit love ... forever.

One last time ... then I quit.